Thursday, November 24, 2011
Know what I'm thankful for? That nothing in my life happened the way I planned.
When Julian was born, I was 22 years old. I turned 23 a month later. Wade and I got married when I was 4 months pregnant, and had only known each other a few months before that. The fact that I actually got married to someone I hardly knew, and then had a baby with him shortly after that is crazy. Lots of people told me to just have an abortion. Or that getting married so young would be a huge mistake. There were even people from my old church who found out about what was going on, and took the time to write me letters letting me know how disappointed they were in me, but that they were praying for me. Yeah.
But I didn't do what people told me to do. I got married. I had the baby. No, I didn't want to be a mom or a wife at 22. I had huge plans for myself. I was going to be a successful musician. I was supposed to be free, married to my art. I wasn't going to get married until I was at least 30. And maybe kids, if I had the time. That was the plan.
Deciding to commit to a marriage and to being a mother were the best choices I have ever made. I can't imagine my life without Julian or Wade. And in so many ways, Julian saved us. I have no doubt that we would have broken up if it hadn't been for him. If it weren't for Julian, there would be no Allison and Wade. And there would be no Audrey. Julian saved us and brought us together, and has helped define the person I am now. I am forever thankful to have him as my plan changer.
Broken plans have never been so awesome.